Because I need this chance....

to be right.

Not the kind of right that swallows hearts in a browbeat superiority.

The kind that swallows hearts in a calming ellusion of belonging. Humanity.
An element we all find through our sometimes simple yet alien abilities.

...

"One day I slowly floated away.
One day I slowly floated away...
..There comander in chief was hoping
their destiny was not to die."

...

I was scared. ALREADY. Sigh.
But I found a smile from a slight reassurance to a plee.
Nothing was cruel.

I can see how bad this could twist up.
I hope not. If so, I will have to brush off and pull my way
through the quicksand of my drowning emotions.

I hate the feeling of being held hostage and so vulnerable by emotions!

I have stronger emotions these years.
I want to keep their passion but loose their heat.

I want to use my head more then my heart.
I can think of what's best....
but I can't seem to forcefeed myself the medicine.
...

"Wake up the morning, I shall
Wake up, and so shall you and I
Wake up the sun is beautiful.
And it is warming you and I!

Fragile as we lie."

...

DOs:

• Think positive.
• Be more vulnerable.
• Think and act for yourself.
• Be yourself!
• Meet new people.
• Boost self-esteem. ;]
• Finish a project; i.e. Illustration with full bg and color.
  

DONTs:

• Agree for the sake of comfort.
• Stop Doodling.
• Try something new.
• Forget to think outside the box.
• Sit inside all day--GET OUT!
• Neglect your family and friends.
• Stop blogging here!
• Base everything off the past...lightning doesn't strike twice, kay? [er, 3 times?]
  

....Let's try the above therapy.

Don't get caught up so ferverently in one possibility--remember!
"Never make someone your priority when your only an option to them!"

KNOW:

• It's not from cruelty--you know that tonight/this morning.
• Its new-- you have to spend time on this to know where you stand.
• Jealousy is the black spot...the cancer to your happiness. [don't tred lightly here]
• This will require a different lifestyle then what your used to. Its OK.
  
• When your upset/confused....find something funny to think about. Getfuzzy.com is out there.
• You need to walk away and breathe to think clearly when your emotions flair.
  
• I love you--your capable of being fair to yourself and others. You're amazing for yourself.

Kay. I think I have enough hots for myself for one blog. Till this is necessary again.

Eisley is so helpful. And the Little Mermaid Broadway soundtrack.
:D

Boys and Heaven.
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Boy 1. The Liar. [Sorry, just a conveniant play on words.]

Lace's Sun Conjunct Liar's Venus:

You enjoy a high degree of harmony and congeniality in your relationship. You have much in common in terms of styles, tastes, and entertainments. You work together well on projects that involve a strong aesthetic, artistic, or social element.

Liar's Sun Conjunct Lace's Mars:

You inspire each other to be very active in both work and play, and to accomplish a great deal. You enjoy challenging each other and perhaps enjoy competing with each other in games. The only negative tendency is to possibly develop a rivalry with each other; this is especially possible if Lace comes on too forcefully, directly and aggressively, hurting Liar's feelings or pride.

Liar's Sun Square Lace 's Neptune:

You must guard against mutual deception and misunderstandings. Liar tends to have an unrealistic view of Lace , and Lace has a tendency to unconsciously capitalize on Liar's imaginative and often simply erroneous perceptions. The tendency to be dishonest, hide things from each other, exaggerate, and spur each other to unrealistic hopes and dreams is very strong. Both of you must be able to distinguish fantasy from fact, and utilize the increased sensitivity and heightened imagination that you inspire in each other, without letting it cloud your ability to clearly and realistically see other and understand each other.

Lace's Sun Sextile Liar's Saturn:

If the two of you depend on each other to accomplish practical tasks and be responsible, mature, and dependable to each other (such as in a business relationship or employer-employee relationship), then you will find that this aspect of your relationship is excellent. You can trust each other to get the job done and focus on the essential tasks. You have good attention to detail and your are able to focus on the most important issues when you work together. There is a strong sense of mutual commitment and dedication to each other.
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Boy 2. The Kaiser.

Kaiser 's Sun Opposition Lace's Mercury:

Lively exchanges of ideas are common between the two of you. Fortunately, you understand each other well, but unfortunately you sometimes have opposite opinions and perspectives on an issue. Despite your differences, you work together very well in practical matters, planning, organizing, developing or communicating ideas, and your differing viewpoints are not likely to be a serious problem.

Kaiser 's Sun Opposition Lace's Pluto:

The two of you become very zealous when you get together. You connect on a deep level and you motivate each other to pursue goals that are really interesting and exciting. You push each other out of a complacent attitude and galvanize one another's energies. You enjoy intense experiences together. If either of you feels manipulated or cheated by the other, however, you will become fierce opponents and rivals.

Lace's Sun Square Kaiser 's Saturn:

J.Kaiser must be very careful not to harshly criticize or judge Lace. There is a strong tendency for Lace to feel blocked, frustrated, and discouraged by J.Kaiser . Typically, J.Kaiser will feel surprised by Lace's feelings of frustration and anger, and feel that Lace is just being overly sensitive to criticism. There is an element of truth to both viewpoints: J.Kaiser tends to be too critical of Lace and Lace tends to be too sensitive to the criticism; the combination can be disastrous! Lace may try to ignore the problem, but ignoring the problem will not cause the problem to disappear. On the positive side, you are often able to work together effectively in meeting challenges and responsibilities. However, the tendency to become overly concerned with your responsibilities and be too conservative, cautious, and restrictive towards each other must not get out of hand, or you will both feel severely confined and restricted by being together.

Lace's Sun Square Kaiser 's Neptune:

You must guard against mutual deception and misunderstandings. Lace tends to have an unrealistic view of J.Kaiser , and J.Kaiser has a tendency to unconsciously capitalize on Lace's imaginative and often simply erroneous perceptions. The tendency to be dishonest, hide things from each other, exaggerate, and spur each other to unrealistic hopes and dreams is very strong. Both of you must be able to distinguish fantasy from fact, and utilize the increased sensitivity and heightened imagination that you inspire in each other, without letting it cloud your ability to clearly and realistically see other and understand each other.

Lace's Sun Trine Kaiser 's Moon:

You two are the best of friends! You understand and appreciate each other, and are able to work together very harmoniously. No relationship is free of difficulty and stress, and this astrological influence does not nullify other stressful influences described elsewhere in this report, but it does add a harmonious quality to your relationship that helps you over the rough spots.

Kaiser 's Sun Trine Lace 's Neptune:

The two of you have a strong intuitive understanding of each other, and you inspire each other's imagination, idealism, and aspirations. You help each other to become clearer about your ideals and religious inclinations, and together you develop a greater sense of meaning and purpose in your lives. You help each other to look beyond the daily problems and issues of your personal lives and focus more on altruistic goals and broader issues.
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Boy 3, The Enigma. [I don't know you...;3 Yet]

Lace's Sun Conjunct Enigma's Venus:

You enjoy a high degree of harmony and congeniality in your relationship. You have much in common in terms of styles, tastes, and entertainments. You work together well on projects that involve a strong aesthetic, artistic, or social element.

Enigma's Sun Conjunct Lace's Mercury:

Talking and sharing ideas is highlighted in your relationship. You enjoy learning new things together and exchanging points of view. You work well together in planning, organizing, theorizing, writing, or communicating ideas in any manner. You work together effectively on daily chores, problems, or business activities.

Enigma's Sun Conjunct Lace's Pluto:

You draw out each other's deepest, hidden feelings, drives, needs, and ambitions. The uncovering of your inner needs and hopes is likely to cause both of you to undergo some major personality changes. You share a deep, inner bond; this is not a light or superficial relationship. You may go on a crusade together and jointly pursue shared interests with unusual intensity and dedication.

Lace's Sun Sextile Enigma's Uranus:

Playfulness and a zest for newness infuse your realtionship. You really spark each other's imagination and creativity. This quality is especially welcome in a long-term relationship because you will not fall into a lifeless routine. You spur each other to explore, take risks, and develop new creative outlets. You encourage each other's independence and you have faith in one another's creative, inventive ideas and interests.

Enigma's Sun Sextile Lace's Neptune:

The two of you have a strong intuitive understanding of each other, and you inspire each other's imagination, idealism, and aspirations. You help each other to become clearer about your ideals and religious inclinations, and together you develop a greater sense of meaning and purpose in your lives. You help each other to look beyond the daily problems and issues of your personal lives and focus more on altruistic goals and broader issues.
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Note:
-Promise I dont stalk! I just enjoy playing with stars. If anyone should come across this and recognize themself.... I claim to only wish to be enlightened.
I can't be the only one wishing that. But yes....I did use your birthdays.
Even those I don't know well enough to ask for their birthday.
It's my investigatory nature, dears.
I'm not sorry, but if your offended....I apologize.

Next blog will probably cross reference the descriptions. But I don't know Enigma...so that may take time.

Wow. I feel like I'm coming off creepy.

I'm just taking notes. ;D
No harm or malicious intent.

Where in the World is Lacey-ago?

Tea, L, Sea.
=
T, L, C.
aka
Tory, Lace, Cantwell.
That means I tried to be clever, which usually backfire on me. I get so caught ahead of myself and others I look like a re-re (retard).

Thought I'd explain that.

;]

I like to emote. Look out. It helps me communicate. What, what? Heh.
Will I keep this blog going?
Well, geez I hope so! But it is the billionth blog I've created, so who knows. Maybe I'll break pattern.

But I dont like to let too much info loose. On any community.

Oh, my blog is titled Starry Story because I will resource everything back to a zodiac principle. People, that is.

I find it entertaining, ironic, intreging and insightful. Be warned. I do try to use objectivity and know very well that nothing is in stone...or the stars.

Heh. More when i'm upset. I hope.
-w-